September 10, 2010
Battle
I’m in a battle and for some reason, I just really realized it. Satan is scared. I’m attempting to deepen my relationship with God and quit pulling. And Satan’s trying his hardest to stop me.
The day I decided to really dig into Beth Moore’s book “Breaking Free” was the day it was due back at the library because someone else wanted it. So I don’t have it anymore, but I ordered it and it’s on its way. A slight setback, but an obvious one. It must be a good book. 
I’ve been sick the last few days and being weak physically usually goes hand-in-hand with mental weakness. When I’m not strong mentally, I tend to pull more and get lazy. I’ve actually been doing ok, though. Much better than a few years ago.
I just went back through my Bible study notebook and highlighted some phrases that I like and/or hit me really hard. I’m a list-writer, so here you go:
~”As much as my flesh wanted relief, I knew that when all was said and done, I’d sit on that side of glory having much rather fulfilled my calling than served myself all the way to meaninglessness. I had to accept that I was not called to an easy life. I was called to a purposeful life.”
~”In daily living, Beloved, strength comes from muscle, and muscle develops with a WORKout. This is as true spiritually as physically. What we don’t use, we lose.”
~”We must catch the Enemy in the act, call it what it is, and keep from him what he wants.”
~”Because Satan has a limited leash where believers are concerned, his most powerful tactics are psychological. Though he can’t possess our minds, he profoundly and destructively influences our thoughts.”
~”Satan has a theory that he’s banked his entire accuser’s career on: Even the strong grow weak. True enough, but this, Beloved One, is also true: Even the weak grow strong if they set their minds to it.”
Yeah, he’s putting up a fight. I’m growing stronger, but I’m still struggling. I need to get my mind set on God so that He is the first one I go to, almost instinctively (but not to be confused with “out of habit” as that implies thoughtlessness) in times of trouble.
On the other hand, where Satan has come out, so has God (as if there was any doubt). My good friend, Kathleen, who shares my pulling disease, messaged me out of nowhere to ask how I was doing. Once I’m done with my Esther Bible study, I’m going to be rejoining my best friends Julie and Steph on another leg of our journey together.
So I’m in a battle right now, but when aren’t we?
