September 8, 2010
Purposeful
So for a while there, I was wondering and praying to God what my HIS purpose is for my pulling. (Still wondering, but I haven’t really concentrated on it in a while. Shame on me.) Well, I was doing my Esther bible study tonight (by Beth Moore), something struck me to the point that I actually turned my head as if someone has slapped me.
“At strategic times of internal war I stop and ask myself, ‘What if this is a crucial moment? What if this very thing, this very decision, is the most important piece of the puzzle comprising my purpose?’
God has profoundly used the conviction that those heightened times of decision in my toughest trials could be ‘make it or break it’ moments in my desitny. Much like Mordecai suggested, I always knew God would accomplish His will and do what He intended, but if I made a man-ward (vs. Godward) decision, I’d be left out of a divine loop that would eventually mean everything to me.
Beloved, in the times of greatest struggle, when you make the Godward decision over convenience, earthly comfort, or carnal pleasure, you too have come to a critical moment in the fulfillment of your destiny. A defining moment. A war is being waged over your head in the unseen realm, and a great cloud of witnesses is cheering you on. You have no idea what’s at stake.”
God is going to accomplish His goal with or without me. But if I choose to satisfy mySELF instead of Him, I’ll miss out on the lessons and the gifts He has for me if I succeed. And those will be more important than anything else I can imagine.
I can’t blow this opportunity. I need to suffer in discomfort and anxiety to see what glory is on the other side. It WILL be worth it.
